organize

I am tackling organization one room at a time. I have come to the conclusion that I have many items that have no place to go and must design a space for them and I still have a bunch of boxes of stuff as though I just moved in. Heck, I’ve been here 4 years. No wonder my house lacks a feeling of warmth. My art isn’t even hung. My collections aren’t displayed. Is this some sort of Freudian behavior?

Everywhere I look, at home and at work…there is clutter. I’m stuck in this self-perpetuating space of feeling overwhelmed. It’s impacting my daily life and sense of peace. I was raised in an immaculate home. I prefer my environment to be that way. I’m embarrassed to have anyone see me this way. I’ve driven people away because I can’t risk anyone stopping by. Is there a chemical in the brain that activates organization? I have been feeling quite blue and anxious. Like I said, it perpetuates its own self by me feeling overwhelmed and then not taking care of it. Help…please. I can’t afford a personal assistant. I know how to do it. I’m disabled by it.