lighten up

Right, lighten up, starting now. Ready Set Go. Just do it. I have the greatest opportunity in the world. I can be as selfish as I want to be since no one else is around. There are no other feelings to consider at this very moment so I need to relax and lighten up.
I’m not at work, I can be myself so I can lighten up. It just seems weird being alone. I never ever have been a person who has lived alone. Kids at 18, married at 24. Divorced at 40. Married at 42. Separated at 45.
Maybe not taking everything so seriously and lightening up it will be ok. I can do this and if i can lighten up maybe even have some fun in the process. Lots of people live by themselves and are perfectly happy, or so they appear.
So thinking of some ways to relax… stop worring about the bills. If I run short of money for deposits and first time bills ect. obviously I’ll just write a bad check. The bank will cover it and I’ll catch up the next month when I have less bills. Ok that problem is solved.
What else, Choking- I probably won’t choke and die just because no one else is here. Work will come looking for me anyway.
If I fall and I can’t get up I can call 911, thats why we carry cell phones.. what else is keeping me from lightening up.
Eventually I will tell my family that I moved… its only been since Christmas and is it really anybody elses business but mine? Why is an address important? Ok thats settled.
Someone really needs to check the oil in my car and I guess that someone would be me. Tomorrow, first thing I promise myself to figure out how to open the hood on this car and get that oil checked. I have had the thing for a year now and its time. Next week its going in for an oil change too. What else.
Screw this bad day and remember what is good about life. I am ok. Nothing a bubble bath and a glass of wine won’t cure. What a great idea.

Just to serious. Need to stop and enjoy what I work so hard for. Take some time for me.