today i worked with the antidotes to restlessness & i had a revelation. i realized that my anxiety and restlessness were kidnapping me from the moment. by focusing on them, i was not experiencing my day to day being or deriving as much joy as i could from it. also—instead of expending my energy on doing what i need to do to alleviate the worry, i getting bogged down about feeling bad because i hadn’t done anything or worrying about things i couldn’t change.
my teacher emailed me with some positive feedback—it made me cry.
Mar 22, 2006, 12:30PM PST | 3 cheers | 1 comment
that is my main hindrance—i experience a lot of anxiety. i read last night in the Art of Happiness the Dalai Lama’s advice on the subject:
- If the situation or problem is such that it can be remedied, then there is no need to worry about it.
- Alternatively, if there is no way out, no solution, no possibility of resolution, then there is also no point in being worried about it, because you can’t do anything about it anyway.
My anxiety is tuned in such a way that it doesn’t appear to me to be worry. It seems to me to be more of a shopping list of things I need to do or should have done each day. However, essentially it’s all a form of worrying. I’m going to try and overcome this.
Mar 19, 2006, 07:27AM PST | 2 cheers | 3 comments
I’m on week 2 of my online meditation class. I was really good in week one-I think I meditated something like 5 out of 7 days. Week 2 I’ve kinda slipped-I’ve only meditated 3 times. I’m going to meditate today…
I’m studying the hindrances—my biggest one is definitely restlessness. I am excited to learn how to counter it.
Mar 18, 2006, 10:33AM PST | 1 cheer | 2 comments
