make one new friend

i read this last night

sincere motivation acts as an antidote to reduce fear and anxiety

the closer one gets to being motivated by altruism, the more fearless one becomes in the face of even extremely anxiety-provoking circumstances. but the same principle can be applied in smaller ways, even when one’s motivation is less than completely altruistic. standing back and simply making sure that you mean no harm and that your motivation is sincere can help reduce anxiety in everyday situations

consequently, if i really think about my motivation in future attempts to meet people and realize that it comes from just wanting to love and be loved in return, then perhaps i won’t be so shy. i don’t mean anyone any harm and i sincerely want to have more good people in my life.

Just like on tv. That’s what I want. A bunch of people that I can call and hang out with, as a group and separately. I’m not really shy, but for some reason I just don’t seem to click with people. I guess I just expect people to approach me. People who have a lot of friends probably don’t expect others to initiate contact.