do something that scares me every day

right now life is pretty damn scary. it takes a lot to smile, and get through the day…i think i’m marking this done for now…

every day without them…without school…is scary as hell. :/

what am i going to do?!

yesterday we were in france at epcot [disney world] and they have french people that work there and my grandpa goes around talking to all of them telling them that i speak french, and it forced me to talk…it was really scary… :/

did mock audition for casserly’s class.

day one…check.

i had a callback audition today. it was kinda scary…and i didn’t get cast, but it was worth it. i’m learning to take risks.

i had an audition today. and it was with a company i’ve never worked with before, and one of my acquaintences showed up [who is like, the KING of that company, he’s been in every single show] and i FREAKED OUT…but it turned out well…but it was still scary.

i did something that scared me today.

freak yeah. it sucked. but that’s okay. at least i did it.

so since life IS scary, i am basically doing something that scares me every day.

being a teenager sucks.

enough said.

well…i took a risk today. it was a small one, and it didn’t scare me persay, but it made me nervous. it doesn’t seem so scary, but in colleen’s class for across the floor i was second in line, and we were doing a step we learned in ms. casserly’s class that i hadn’t been good at. but i was second in line, and she was watching us closely, and it just made me a bit nervous…its not a big deal, but i was proud of myself.

i’m a terrible risk taker, and if i do one thing that scares me every day, it will teach me, i hope!