get back in shape

I’m really doing well staying on track. My workouts have been great, my diet very good, and no drinking for the past few days… got to keep the momentum going!

I skipped my gym workout yesterday morning and grabbed my running stuff as I ran out the door, ran at 3 o clock just at the time my brain is about to shut down… Did a kick ass hill workout, and then made it to the gym this morning. I am sore, and a little tired, but I feel GREAT!

I worked out like a fiend this weekend; felt wondeful. Last week was awful and stressful with a death in the family I had been over eating, not working out, and drinking… the trifecta of failure that has earned me this 35 pounds and the loss of my beloved fit physique.

However, I did get two good workouts, and have brought my running clothes and scheduled myself for a 45 minute run at 3 pm today. Also brought food from home and ate a healthy breakfast.

Simply must stop two things: Drinking at home (the occasional while out is ok) and eating at night; I’ve never done that before I keep waking up with a scratchy throat and end up eating… NOT GOOD.

All in all, the progress is more forward moving than back at this point, but I DON’T want to stagnate. I want to be looking as fit and as hot as possible by July 1, and that means every day, every workout, and every bit of food counts between now and then.

Not a good start to the weekend. I worked out on Friday and felt great, and then I drank. Not good. Saturday I drank again. Did not make it to the gym at all. Sunday I had a fantastic workout, but feel I ate too much. Was just ravenous! Although I did prepare a very healthy snack when I was feeling snacky on Sunday.

Today is so-so. Didn’t go to the gym this am, but did bring all my lovely healthy food to work; veggies, my homemade whole wheat bread, and a single portion of lowfat cheese. Strawberries. Lots of water.

Keeping on, keeping on… I want to get my beautiful hot body back! I want to wear my gorgeous clothes! I want to make my husband crazy with lust and just bursting with pride (he already thinks I’m hot; just to think how he’d react to seeing me at my very best…. ah, heaven!)

My biggest problem is INCONSISTENCY. I do well, I do fabulous for a day or two or three… and then blow it. Must resist that. Must anticipate that and head it off. I want to be gorgeous and ready for the summer… can’t afford to let a day slip by!

Did a good hard cardio workout. Tomorrow I will do strength training. Also brought all my own food today, so am planning to eat well again today.

Have lost two pounds as result of no alcohol, good dietary choices.

Still have about 28 pounds to go, and want to be toned and in great shape by the “end” of this. Then my new goal will be maintenance. Off to a good start and feeling very positive!

This morning my homemade healthy take on the McMuffin- a whole wheat English muffin with some egg white mostly and veggie fritatta, a slice of soy sausage, and a slice of reduced fat swiss. It’s a tiny sandwich, but packed with protein and low in fat/cal. I also had a banana as a snack. Really trying to learn to like them

Just finished a lovely lunch of baby sweet peppers, celery, non fat cottage cheese, half an avocado and some muscatel grapes (so delicious!). It takes more effort to eat this way- no, strike that- it takes conscious decisions and some planning ahead, but it is so worth it. I wasn’t hungry as I often am well before lunch, and I know I’ll make it til dinner on the lovely food I just ate. And if I need a snack, I have veggies and/ or a reduced fat swiss cheese.

I am also drinking WATER. Eventually I want to also kick the diet soda habit for good, but since I’ve taken on two pretty big goals right now; Quitting alcohol and getting back into shape, I am going to hold off on that til I’ve made some serious progress in the first two areas. I’ve always found that if I try to do everything all at once, I end up doing nothing.

Feeling positive, happy, at peace (SUCH PEACE) over my decision to give up alcohol, and am prepping myself to get up early for the morning trip to the gym. Off to a good start, going for a perfect day three!

Well…. I did turn the alarm off when it rang at 4:30; didn’t make it to the gym.

BUT, I did eat healthy all day yesterday; prepared all my own food except for a very sorry salad from Quizno’s at lunch (no bread, light dressing), and today I have packed food for the day. Veggies, fruit, low fat protein. And more importantly, I didn’t drink yesterday, and I will not drink today. I slept very well after a wonderful night with my husband, and woke up in a good mood and with a positive attitude. I am on track. Need to get the REGULAR workouts going again though. Very important.

Wish me well… I am wishing you all well on your journey!

I posted a long message about what I consider my primary goal, however, I do think the two go hand in hand. They are completely interlinked. Because I have been unable to control my drinking, I have been getting progressively heavier and heavier, and weaker and weaker. I have lost so much of what I worked so hard to achieve. I was living in a strong, fit, slim body and I looked AMAZING. I felt fantastic. I had so much energy and confidence. I was vibrant.

I had always (as an adult) enjoyed drinking wine, but for years and years drank responsibly. A couple of years ago my nightly glass of red wine, which I considered a treat that was in line with my health goals, became two, then often more. For about the past year, I have EASILY been able to put away an entire bottle, or, I’m ashamed to admit, sometimes more, in a day. By myself. I began fighting with my husband about it. If impacted the way I ate BIG TIME, in addition to all the empty calories I was guzzling and doing God knows what to my poor liver, I was drunk a lot, so not making good food choices. I have seen a return to my binge eating habits on some of these days, which terrifies me. I began to lie about my drinking, I began to sneak and hide… it all crept up progressively. I am now a good 32 pounds heavier, and I am not nearly as healthy as I was. My knee has begun hurting on my longer runs. I have NO consistency, because often I am too hungover to get to the gym in the morning. I feel like crap. I am not confident about the way I look. None of my suits or beautiful fitgirl clothes fit anymore. I can BARELY squeeze into one pair of jeans. I’ve been wearing the same forgiving dresses over, and over and over. I wouldn’t dream of not wearing pantyhose or letting my husband see my in sexy panties or in the buff. This is not me! I refuse to give into to this!

So today, May 4th, is the day I quit drinking alcohol, reclaim my fitness, and reclaim my life!