be content

I also have to be patient. I would get less upset about the things I don’t like if I could develop more patience.

I guess you can only really be content when you’re suffering some sort of hardship. Because if you’re ok or happy, then you don’t need to be content. You’re just ok or happy. I guess that’s the challenge of being content. I’m not finding it easy.

I’m tired of the old feelings and the old patterns happening again and again. I want to be content with what I have as well as what I don’t have. I don’t want to react to the things in my life that I’m finding difficult and that I don’t like by getting depressed. It’s sort of working at the moment, even though I still get sad from time to time, but I think that’s ok and normal. I think part of being content is accepting sad and other not nice feelings. What’s also helping me is focusing on things/people other than myself and my own feelings. But in a more balanced way than in the past. Before, I would deal with my issues by cutting off from my emotions or using work or something else to distract me. That was too focused on the outside. Now I want to know what I’m feeling inside and acknowledge and deal with it without ignoring it AND be ok/content with it.