slow down

I’ve had a hectic time the last 2 or 3 days working literally 7-11 apart from necessary breaks. Today is the first day I’ve had a chance to get a breather and my husband is also out of town for a day. I still have a certain buzz inside that makes me want to compulsively do things and get them finished, but I’m trying to relax and deliberately do things more slowly…

The solitude helps. I’m enjoying the quiet on my own – I can hear myself better, I’m free to do whatever I want and I feel I have the space to step back and think about what I want do in the coming month.

Now I’m way too slow. I’m not sure how or why. I actually want to get more serious about things and do more towards certain things I want to work on, but I feel too light at the moment. I do the things I have to do but not a lot more. If I try to force myself, I’m not very productive. I feel like there’s not a lot I can do about it. Just go with the flow? I hope I sober up and get faster soon.

I think this quote sums up really well how I should change my attitude in order to slow down:

“Don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds you plant.”
- Robert Louis Stevenson

It was one of the random quotes that comes up on the page on 43 things.

My husband says that I think too much about lots of different things all at once. I think he’s right. I think I’m unconsciously thinking about lots of things that I think are important that I forget the small, “unimportant” things, like the fact that I’ve just made myself a snack – but then I forget to eat it because I go do something else. It’s like things are zinging around in my head really fast and that I’m also doing things fast. I think the problem is I put pressure on myself to be efficient and get things done so I can do all the other things I have/want to do. I’m very focused on getting the end result. Maybe too much.

Today, I deliberately wrote up an invoice slowly. Slowly and consciously pushing each key on my laptop and not rushing.