save a life

Well, since I’m putting this on the internet, I don’t want to give too much information, but about a week and 2 days ago, last Friday, my friend and I were at school. We have lunch and “study hall” (i guess you could call it) together, and he was acting normal. At lunch, he was cracking jokes like nothing was wrong. I didn’t see a thing. I said ‘see ya’ to him and my other 2 friends, only thinking about what I was gonna have to do in my next class. I get home, and everything was normal. The next day (Saturday), I find out from one of my friends’ text messages that he went home and shot himself at around 6-6:30 on Friday, and he was on life support. I found out on Monday that he died on Saturday. I was feeling so depressed and upset that day, I had to go to my counselor’s office. I found out on Tuesday that he actually posted on Facebook that he was gonna kill himself, but I didn’t go on Facebook after I got home. I never saw it. Some of my other friends were posting to him not to, and were trying to call him, but he wasn’t picking up his phone. Once I saw basically what his suicidal note was, I broke down. I still feel I could’ve saved him. If I had gone onto Facebook on Friday and noticed his note, I could’ve at least gotten to his house to try to stop it. His life could’ve been the life I had to save to finish this goal. I went to his funeral on Wednesday. It was hard to see his family, especially his mother. If I had seen his note…

When I say I want to save a life, I want to get a feeling I would get from only certain experiences like it. Going with that, when I say this, I mean I don’t want to metaphorically save a life. I want to be able to see someone and know that they are still here because I was at the right place at the right time and was able to save them.