be the kind of person I want to meet

OK, so I’m supportive enough of HIS plans and ideas. But what about my family and friends? I think I need to improve the way I view their future and ambitions and decisions.

I am pretty sure I’m trustworthy, but I know I need to stop being so bloody paranoid about other people talking about me, or cheating on me or anything along those lines. Like when I don’t get replies to m texts and stuff. And it sounds like he’s making excuses to get out of texting me :S

So. I’ve met the kind of person I want to meet. And he’s lovely and all. So I need to try and be more like him, but not the same as him. I’ll compile a list of his traits at some point :)

I’ve reached a point in life where I don’t ACTUALLY know the type of person I want to meet. I’ve never really gone for a certain ‘type’ of the opposite sex in the first place (as long as they’re smart, weet and have a kick-ass music taste I’m happy. And nice hair)

So… I’ll need to keep improving myself to be the best me I can be. Because that’s all I can do.

I’m drawing a line under the previous entries. I currently think that my personality is almost exactly how I want it to be, with a few more tweaks (or stop being self-centered and shy) it will be brilliant.
And of course, learning to love myself for who I am plays a big role in being who I want to meet. I find it so hard to do this when I find it hard to look in the mirror sometimes. Mornings yukyukyuk.

It’s just my appearance I have issues with… obviously I’m not going to look exactly like the kind of person I want to meet, but I’d like to at least have a fit and healthy body and a fresh, pretty face. And of course, cute clothes would round it off. Maybe this isn’t the correct goal for me… just pursue it.

Well, yesterday. A person in the line at the canteen was short of money (well, two people actually) so I paid their change. How ‘generous’ of me. And no, I don’t want paying back!!

And I don’t want any recognition. END blowing own trumpet

I keep getting really, really bad mood swings. I think they usually happen after reading certain types of book, or watching certain types of movie. Last time I had a really bad one, I had to spend the day after off school to recuperate.

I noticed that it’s generally movies and books with a love undertone, which remind me of better times, and have happy ending. What is WRONG with me?!

I’m adding mini-goals to help me acheive each thing on my list.

Healthy
- Snack on more healthy foods
- Drink fewer carbonated drinks
- Exercise every day
- Less sugar
- Be more disciplined with my food intake

Lovable
- Show my individuality
- Always be hygienic
- Don’t yell at people
- Accept others
- Don’t insult people
- Think about other peoples’ feelings
- Listen

Vulnerable
- Show people I’m not always OK
- Be more open
- Share my feelings
- Connect more with people close to me

Cute
- Smile more often
- Be interested in others
- Don’t ever be too loud
- Become a giver
- Do little things for others

Affectionate
- Listen to others problems
- Hug!

Physically Attractive
- Believe in myself
- Relax
- Exercise
- Be comfortable with who I am

Creative
- Try out different things until I find something enjoy creating…

Witty
- Watch more comedy (that includes panel shows, satire, sitcoms and stand-up)
- Practice wit
- Become familiar with pop culture references

Sweet
- Care about others, and let them know that I do
- Be patient
- Don’t judge others
- Control my temper

Thoughtful
- Always remember birthdays
- Wish people luck
- Remember details
- Don’t think of myself too much
- Do what I can to help
- Be a giver

Not jealous
- Forget about situations that could make me jealous if they haven’t actually happened
- Don’t react negatively to jealousy
- Stop comparing myself to others
- Trust others

Good at giving advice
- Listen
- Practice empathy
- Be honest
- Think about the consequences
- Don’t give it when it isn’t needed

I’ve been kind of researching empathy, and it appears that I cannot get any more empathetic now. So I’ll cross that one off.

• Healthy
• Empathetic
• Caring
• Lovable
• Vulnerable
• Cute
• Affectionate
• Physically attractive
• Creative
• Witty
• Sober
• Sweet
• Thoughtful
• Not jealous
• Good at giving advice
• Great music taste

I have to work on quite a bit =)