find a nice boyfriend

haha. yeahhh reading these entries..wow. =] my life seems exciting. ha. anyways, i still like the boy in my first entry that i wrote about. A LOT. i think he likes me too a little bit but nothing really has happened besides flirting. will something ever happen?
as for the other boy, he’s leaving in a week and a half, but he’s coming back next summer because he’s going to live in a dorm and you come back for the summer. but yeah i dont like him at allll that was like the smallest crush ever.

ahhh i am glad to say that i am over that one kid..! like idk, i just haven’t been thinking about him at all (i’ve made myself stop haa) and today i just realized how much i actually don’t like him..just how unattractive he is. how mean he is..i don’t need it. i was actually really proud of myself though when i was at work. he kept saying that i looked like a chipmonk. this was the second time in diff. days that he said that, so obviously he thinks i look like one.

i get to see him tonight..i really can’t wait. if he’s being an ass i wont be surprised. usually every other week he acts like one..i never know why. but i still can’t wait to see him. all my friends when i showed them to him in the yearbook, they said he wasn’t cute. haha. i guess come to think of it, i didn’t think he was that cute when i first saw him. but once you get to know him..wowww baby. and that other kid that i work with, he was like all on top of his girlfriend at school the other day. it was kinda gross. he was just like touching her and hugging her randomly. it was just a little nauseating is all.

ahh ha yeah i have strong feelings once again for that stupid kid that i said i hated 2 entries ago..he’ so cute. he got a haircut. he was flirting MAJOR with me the whole time. =] we touched eachother so much..it was cute =] lmfaoo he threw a chicken leg at my stomache. he makes me laugh and smile sooo much. i really really wish he didn’t have a girlfriend. if he didn’t maybe justttt maybe he’d hook up with me.

i like this other kid that i work with too now..he’s cuuute. he’s really athletic. he flirts with me a lot. he has a girlfriend though that he really likes i think. i always see them at school together and they’re like attached at the shoulder. i never see him without her. whateverrr. he’s a senior and he’s going to college this summer 4 hours away. (milwaukee) he’s going to be a highschool teacher. she’s going to college too like 45 min. away from him..sometimes i see him as just a friend. mostly i do. he’s not my type. he’s like a know-it-all, and he kinda fibs his way around things. it doesn’t even matter though because he’s quitting work like the begining of summer anyway.

BLAHH. i hate that kid that i just said that i really really liked. well idk its like a love/hate thing. he can be SUCH a jerk. SUCH a jerk. and then other times im like wowwwww you’re amazing. i can’t take that..i HATE love/hate relationships lol. i just want a LOVE/LOVE one damnit!

I like this kid i work with sooo much. he’s so cute, and..i think he sortve likes me too, except for the fact that he’s had a 2 year relationship with his girlfriend..today, i was standing there, and he lightly lightly lightly shoved my arm so he could lean up against the wall. it was so cute. =] and he’s not mean to me like he use to be..and today he sat with me for a little while when i was at one of the tables sorting the silverware. he’s sooo adorable. man. he makes me =] likeee big time. he is seriously like obsessed with girls butts. im not joking. this other waitress girl was in front of us, and i saw him staring at her ass. i was like wth..lol no wonder he always allows me to go first..ladies first MY ASS. haha LITERALLY TOO. lmao. <333333 ahhh i wish him and his gf would break up..as mean as that sounds. but ITS MY TURN. lol