get him back

Oh, this is not going to happen, ever. We’re much too different, and I’m much too happy in my current relationship situation.

I’m not counting out the possibility of playing with him sexually at some point, though. He’s currently single and I’m polyamorous, so why not? I still like him both as a friend and in the sexual / cuddly kind of way even though I don’t want a relationship with him.

Maybe I’ll keep this goal on my list just to keep track in a single place on how the situation’s going to develop, though.

I just talked to him on the phone today. And I felt so stupid! Something about his presence makes me act like the biggest airhead in the world, and this never happened to me with anyone else even if I’ve been desperately in love before. Eh.

So I don’t even know whast he thinks of me. Or if we will ever have a chance.

I don’t know what I’m doing and I don’t know what to do. I’m in love! And it feels horrible and lovely at once.

I’m totally sure I made the right choice. But still… I wish things had been different.