respect myself

Well, does he cut the muster? Listen to The Voice That Loves You. She’d say NO

Remember what Dr R said: being able to be civil is a winning situation for YOU. What are you going to regret? Being left out and being the one who gossips and complains. Can’t you be right in your heart, know it and not have to knock this schmuck out loud? He deserves it of course, but you don’t. You don’t want to be that person, I know you don’t.

There is nothing to miss. You are not missing anything. You deserved better, you have better now. Respect your friends now too by NOT wanting to be w that asshole instead.