(which were way too long ago).
Initially, I wanted to learn guitar so that I could play along with my musical friends. (When I was 14 or so, I spent a glorious year singing in an amateur folk group. But besides my voice, my only contribution to that group was my phenomenal memory for lyrics. If anyone forgot the words during a performance, she or he had only to look at me to pick up the next phrase.)
For my birthday one year, I asked my parents for a guitar. Neither of them played any instruments, nor were they rolling in dough, but they came through. The guitar came with a little instruction book.
Now, I’ve always learned really well from books – in fact, my mother used to tease me that if I could have learned to drive from a book, I’d have tried to. But without the discipline of actual lessons with a living, breathing teacher (which my family probably couldn’t have afforded even if I’d known enough to request them), I got virtually nowhere once I’d “mastered” the first few pages.
I knew zip about how to tune the guitar, and I couldn’t even read music.
So eventually I gave the guitar to my stepbrother.
Later in my teens, I was writing a journal entry. Uncharacteristically for me, I was fantasizing about the future, trying to picture myself in my 20s – where would I be living, what would I be doing, and so on. At one point I started to write that I’d be learning to play the piano, but then I stopped myself.
“Maybe,” my teenaged self wrote seriously, “I’d better hold off on that until I’m older – say, 40 or so. After all, I don’t want to get to that age and find that I have nothing left to learn!”
Well, 40 came and went, and fortunately I still have plenty left to learn. Including, someday, I hope, piano.
Actually, the year I turned 41, I did buy myself a nice second-hand keyboard. I wasn’t flush enough to spring for lessons, though, so once again my initial enthusiasm faded and the keyboard languished in a corner until I loaned it more or less permanently to a pal who can really use it.
Getting back on this particular horse isn’t my top priority at this moment, but my current fantasy is that once I’ve gotten my apartment decluttered, I can find room for a keyboard again. And this time I’ll be able to afford lessons.