become a better christian

i feel i need to get my life on track, find a purpose and trust god. I haven’t gone to church in a long time, and i have had a rough couple months lately. Instead of seeking and praising god, i went away from him, tried to make it by myself, and ignored the things that really mattered. I need to learn to appreciate the things that really matter in life like my great family and friends, instead of dwelling on the negatives. I need to learn how to trust god and his ways even if I don’t understand, and i need to learn that everything happens for a reason. I have been filled with anger and frusturation for a while now, and i just recently realized how alone i am without a relationship with god. Please pray for me b/c i need all the help i can get, and i will be praying for u 2.