research different PhD programs in International Education

Changed it from child development to International Education.. GO FOR IT!

Out of the blue, my professor encouraged me to take this direction in life. Her words are very powerful and soon, very soon, I will move forward with this goal.

Looked up Erikson Institute again. I printed out a Googlel map showing me where it is. It looks like there’s an home house in June. Maybe I’ll take a trip to Chicago and talk to someone. I have a cousin I could stay with.

I did a lttle searching via the internet this morning. I always find myself at the Erikson institute of Chicago’s website. They are connected to Loyola Chicago.

As I was reading the web site, I realize that I want to apply in one year. If I did it now, it would be pretty challenging to get it all together by Feb 1st the deadline. I also worry about the graduate writing sample.  I want to put in my final project, which isn't written yet,because I know it will be pretty impressive.  If I wait I can get all the recommendations in adavance. I can start the application process in Sept for the next year. I'll feel better.  I think my GRE scores will be still be good. I took them 3 years ago???

After I graduate this summer, I'll start working on the application, and maybe I'll look for work in Chicago??? Wow!  I really want to work on my Spanish and finish my ESL cert. .
Years ago I heard a lecture by a professor from Erikson at Seattle U.  It's always stuck with me.  We'll see. I still need to research other places.

I talked with L. about it and she was very supportive and encouraging. There are road blocks, like money and getting into a progam I like.

As I was thinking about it though, I started to cry , because I might have to leave here, where i"ve lived for my whole adult life.  It would mean leaving friends who have become like family. neighborhoods that I have 15 years of memories in.

I think I really do want a PhD and I think I want enough to leave for a few years.

I’d love it. I need to take the GRE’s. I did that them a few years ago, but I’m sure I’d do better now. Although I remember I did ok on them

Deadline for this year is Jan 15th for the appllication. I’m thinking I’ll wait a year,b ut I could do it …..

I don’t know why it struck me as I wasn’t worthy of it. I keep thinking about all the things that block me for this and i know I need to really just have faith that I can and will do this.
In the dark shadows I think, I’ll never get in. I don’t have the money, I’m not smart enough. I’m too old. I’ll have to move.

I need to throw light on those thoughts.. I have to believe it will happen and I will find the way.  I will get in . I"ll find the money, I am smart enough.I'm not too old. It's ok to m ove.  I need to stay positve .

It’s still too early to register. If I can afford it and go, I hopefully learn and experience what PHD people do. Maybe I’ll be able to see myself doing the presentations in a few years.

I am starting my PhD in Child Development. I am living my dream of doing research about preschool children. Wow. I’m amazed at myself. I will finish. I am able to pay for the program and my living expenses. Life is abundant. I am able to study what I love. Do orginal research!