sent positive energy (prayers) to people and situations that need it.

Day 1 KK/GG. Prayers for us.

For E,
for peace in her heart. Her husband passed away last week. I know them from church. They had this love that was so pure and so deep. They are the example of love I want in my life. He died from a short battle with cancer (discovered in Jan) He was one of the sweetest men I’ve ever known. He was firefighter and just wanted to do good in the world. (and he did) I worry about E , in her days following and being a widow. She is about 15 years older than he was . He was 57. God bless her.

For my uncle K. He sent me an email, filled with a story about a dream he had, filled with family memories. I just love him. He is a great guy. I always appreciate him, where I think some folks, misunderstand his chattiness, in a family that doesn’t really communicate. I know he misses his wife, who passed away a few years back.

for me, I ask that I feel more connected and hopeful. I fear I am walking on the edge of some depression and I don’t want to go down that road again.

For J and E. J and E are a couple at my church, whom I become quick friends with when I joined. Their love of each other, just radiates and pulls everyone in. J is a firefighter, about 57 or so, E is 70. She worked in the corporate world and is retired. They’ve been married about 15 years. This means she married him , when she was 55 and he was about 32. The love story between them can not be denied. She always is smiling and so friendly and outgoing and just a fun loving light hearted person. He matches her so well. He’s a gentlman, he is tall and handsome and broadshouldered, The kind of guy you want as your fire fighter. He always gives me a kiss on the cheek when he greets me and all the other ladies. He is sweet and kind. At Christmass, they had a smll group of friends, celebrate their 15 year anniversary, with a blessing at their house. It was beautiful
About a month ago, J was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, stage 4, He hasn’t been able to make it to church and E. has been missing on and off. Today I found out he was moved to hospice. I am so sad and my heart is heavy with emotion. I imagine E. is devistaed and J is as well. Such an amazing couple with love in their hearts. I’m so sad for them. So fast, he is going down hill. Our priest is going to have a mass with J and E at the hospice and I might go. I really do want to see J. He’s a beautiful soul.

I also ask for prayers for my friend K, who suddenly lost her broher. K is about 40? brother 43? . I’m not sure what happened, but my heart goes out to her.

such heavy hearts. Peace be with them. and me and everyone.

prayers for my friend J. We found out today that he just recently was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I know he and his wife from church. He is a fireman about 58 or so. He is tall and handsome. He greets all the women with a sweet how are you and a nice kiss on the cheek. Very sweet and kind. His wife is from ireland and she is 73. they’ve been married for about 25 years. Do the math. When they married, she was 52 and he was 33. I can only imagine!. She is beautiful and spunky and awesome. they fit perfectly together.
I am so sad to here about the cancer. He wasn’t at church this week, but his wife was. It was shared that J had the cancer during the service. Everyone gasped. We all love J. and can’t imagine how hard this is for him and his wife.
So, my prayers are for J and his wife E. Send him healing and send her strength. They are so wonderful.

Today a friend of mine, who is a grandmother, life long preschool teacher, and all around caring person, had to let her dearest ,sweetest grandchild go. the little girl suffered from some deplitating special needs. I believe the 3 year old had ceriable palsy. She passed away this morning. The little girl brought so much joy into my friend’s family and all who knew the little one. My prayer is for my friend M and her family. Give them peace and love tonight. Keep them close and let us never forget that the littlest ones among us are so incredibly special. Rest In Peace, sweet girl.

For D, who had surgery yesterday on his foot. He’s home now and my sense is that the realization of the recovery is harden than he thought.

For C, friend who is going through cancer treatment, give her strength.

For D, on the eve of his surgery. quick recovery.
for J , unemployed and seemed a little depressed today.
for R, and his wife. It’s the first holiday after the death of his son and his mother. His wife is in the hospital.
for me, as I wait for a relationship.
for E, her mom, died on Friday. I grew up with E and our famileis were close. Her mom was such a warm and inviting person. We used to go on family field trips, to the statue of liberty and the franklin institute.

For J, J and M, all amazing folks, all unemployed. May they find meaningful work soon.

For C, she’s in the hospital. healing for her.

For all the questions I have in my days. knowing that God is big enough for all of them.

For my family. I can’t wait to see them in a few weeks.

For a friend who recently got laid off, by not fault of her own. It was an reorganzition.

for a staff memember, who may lose her job because of a poor performance . It was “caught” by our monitoring system She put us in severe jeopardy in losing our grant. It was very scarey We talked with her about it today. She was not really understanding how serious this was. It drove my boss crazy and I really thought she was going to be fired on the spot. I pray she can turn in around. I pray whe lands on her feet.

for my family , I miss them.

for J at church battling an infection.
for L, and her recovery.

So frustrated and anxious today. Yesterday at my job, it turns out we didn’t make enrollment. It’s not a little thing. I get a call at 2pm, saying we didn’t make it. I am so mad. I asked last Wednesday and Thursday, Poeple said we made it , I cheered I was relieved I thanked everyone for their hard work. Turns out, that they ddn’t match the lists. One group didn’t tell me that we were down by 4 and went wtih the other list who said 131. I checked the list a few weeks ago asked for correct number, Told everyone to get the paperwork in. They said they would, I assumed they would. they did it very late, so group didn’t know the number changed.

I guess I'm most upset because no one clued me in.

The other thing is that my boss is on vacation. He left Friday.

I spent two hours trying to get the number to work. I trusted that even if we got the number wrong, we had enough extra to cover. I called others in at 4pm, and it was confirmed that we were short. I HATE this.

Today, one that I wanted to spend watching the election and cheering on Obama , I have to deal with this. I’m so pissed off. I hate this so much.

Iwill consult with a peer this morning. We will need to call the big boss, or actaully we will probably call my boss who is on vacation. (I’m so mad that we have to do that).

I don’t want to take the fall. It’s ultimately my responsiblity, kind of. It’s a team of people, yet, I went with what mypeople told me. I was told that we were full and I went with that. I didn’t check my list, because I didn’t see the need. Why triple check? I checked a few weeks ago, thought we were on track. The staff memeber who didn’t get the cos in,
AAAAAAAAA, I am so anxious. Please pray for me.

I have to keep it together. I am worried one thing will set me off, either in tears or anger. (yelling). I need to be calm today. My head is spinning and I can’t think straight.

step one…. talk to my peer, stragetize , get facts. stay positive, keep in perspective. BE CALM.
meet with team, see if they have options.
go through enrollment ,look for any mistakes.
...write time line, explainations…...
....call J. let him know,
.............call c. let her know. Send time line.