Always strive to reflect God even more but still be real and not a flake or a jerk

i’m really struggling with this right now. i don’t think i am doing a good job with my friends from med school being my whole self – particularly the part of my self who believes in God and Jesus. it was so much easier when i was in college, and immediately post. i had more passion and saw everything through the prism of faith. i lived more intentionally. i’m in a dry patch now, which affects everything of course, but where i notice it the most is in my peer interactions. i remain silent when i should speak. i just don’t know if my med school friends know all the things i value. and if i was being completely authentic, they would. right? (now i’m definitely not talking about converting people, and they do know that i’m Christian and attend mass regularly…i’m talking about how i’m a Christian and how it affects my life and choices. that’s what i don’t represent well).