Stop cutting

not going so good, ive been trying other things instead of cutting. the rubber bands dont work for me but i have started hitting my arms against hard edges an stuff also burning, i guess i shouldnt its still self harm and i still need long sleeves cos my arms are now bruised, burnt and cut. for the first time in ages i dont have fresh cuts though. i dont know if this is good or bad.

wow, i dont know whats happening to me anymore, im totally outa control. im cutting more then ever, i should just give up on this goal im never goimg to stop, i love it. right now its my life. the pain is the only feeling i can feel and the blood is the only colour, everything else seems grey. this probebly means im a crazy freak. oh well. if my life keeps going like this im going to break, i just cant cope

shit did it again, three more scars not too deep tho i guess thats ok no its not ok since ive started trying to stop its jus got worse an deeper, im so fucked up

I have to stop doing this
Im such a fucked up freak
I promised myself id stop and its jus getting worse, im cutting deeper then ever, i know i need help but i dont want my parents to find out what im doing
Its serious now an its taking over my life.
I cant stop and part of me doesnt even want to.
help