August Bootcamp 2012: Action and Adventure

I have five days before me to do as I please. I’m going to use this time to refresh and rejuvenate. Part of this may involve unhooking from the internet. I’ll check in here periodically to see how everyone’s doing on their goals.

I wish all of you a wonderful weekend!

Today’s action:
- nothing

Adventure:
- sip coffee at Yorkville and people watch and see if I can spot a celebrity [it’s almost time for TIFF]

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At 5pm today I start my long-weekend. I’m excited, especially after this very tiring, eventful week.

Today’s Action:
- keep working on secret project and secret project 2

Adventure:
- go to shoe mueseum to see the Roger Vivier exhibition [gorgeous shoes]

A disgruntled, former employee sent a vicious email targeting a few co-workers, mentioning a slew of people, me included, and copying just about everyone in the company. It was sent Monday evening and I read it yesterday morning, in total shock. The destructiveness of it was overwhelming and then to see my name in there, even though it wasn’t slanderous toward me, was still shocking.

It said something about me that wasn’t entirely true, but is something that I’ve been working to overcome. So how do I feel about this? I don’t know. Part of me wants to brush it off, but then I barely slept last night. Another part of me accepts that there’s some truth to it, and that it’s not necessarily a bad thing. Actually it was benign compared to what was said about everyone else.

Overall, I’m saddened by what it said about my other co-workers, and that it took such a nasty email to bring some of these unsaid things out in the open.

Today’s action:
- move on and be stronger from this event
- keep focused on my secret project
- workout

Adventure:
- sleep well tonight

a fulfilling month. I have a new perspective on things. Last night I was wondering what I need to do next to become the person I want to be, and a voice inside instantly said, “Love yourself.”

This sounds obvious when I type it here, but it’s a brand new concept for me. Whenever I heard this before it always made sense, but somehow I bypassed applying it to myself. Now I see how this was a blind spot for me.

These last few days I’ve been listing all the things I like and love about myself. The list keeps growing. I guess my fear in loving myself was that it would make me arrogant. Love is not arrogance. It’s kindness and grace.

My dreams are starting to reflect this change, too. Last night’s dream was filled with helping hands and unexpected kindness.

Today’s action:
- be honest with J.

Adventure:
- keep finding things that I like and love about myself

And a short week for me, too. I’m off starting this Friday and won’t return until next Wednesday. A 5-day weekend! Hurray!

This has been a good weekend overall. I’ve woken up feeling positive and thoroughly alive. Not the least bit groggy. I attribute this to my new focus on what I like about myself. Turns out there’s a lot I like about myself.

I have the feeling this is going to be a fast and good week.

Today’s action:
- continue with my secret project
- workout
- go to bed on time

Adventure:
- figure out what I want to do with my 5-day weekend

I’m off today. The laundry and cleaning are all done, along with most of my grocery shopping. This means I have a long-weekend to do whatever I please.

Today’s actions:
- no actions, nothing to do, simply enjoy

Adventure:
- have lunch at a restaurant I haven’t been to
- savour the book I’m reading
- have coffee with a friend

Friday off and I’m over joyed by the thought of a long-weekend awaiting to be savoured.

Today’s action:
- do turn the dining table around, Tritan! It’s time.
- continue working on secret goal – getting very close

Adventure:
- going to Buskerfest
- have something unexpected and delicious for dinner

horrible night’s sleep. I’m going to try to be normal today, even though feel psychotic from the lack of sleep.

Today’s actions:
- exercise
- be easy on myself today
- turn the dining table around

Adventure:
- stay sane

Some days I wake up more determined and stronger than others. Today, I’m not sure where I am. There’s a whirlwind of strength, determination and wariness surging inside me. I have mixed feelings.

Is this good?

Today’s action:
- turn the dining room table around once and for all!
- keep at secret project
- find out about the 2 pay raises I’m owed

Adventure:
- leave work early and enjoy the free time
- keep mentally listing things I love and admire about myself

and now it’s Monday again.

Because I’m very critical of myself, I decided to mentally list all the things I like about myself, my achievements, and wonderful traits. I do this whenever I have a spare moment or when I remember it.

This is the opposite of how I usually treat myself. And how I treat myself is also how I treat others. To be kinder to others, I have to be kinder to myself. This is also the path to genuine self-confidence.

Today’s actions:
- keep uncovering things I like about myself
- work on secret project
- workout
- rearrange dining table

Adventures:
- plan out the weekend