let go of my hurtful past

or am I just wishful thinking? Who knows. This one always seems to creep up on me at the most inopertuned times. I think one day that I’m strong and can just finally move on from the shit that’s happened and I’m good for a few days…maybe a week but then I’m back in my thirteen year-old self all over again and kind of reliving all my demons from back then. Everything in my life fell apart aound the time I was 12-13. I’m 19 now, ill be 20 in october and my past has this extremely tight death-grip hold on me and I’ve never been able to shake it! I feel so lost when iit seems I can’t get back to the here and now. There’s so many things I need to do with my life right now and I always seem to just float away to my past on a cloud and never know where to go from there. Its truly ridiculous that so many years later, a single individual can still have such power over you…without even being present in the others’ life. I need to get past this. I used to handle it well with writing and getting it out and then id be fine but that no longer works. Maybe I need to seek out some therapy of some kind to deal with this and finally move on with my life and LET MY PAST GO!!!