live a healthier lifestyle

I would say, from fall of last year to about May, I was closing in on 190 lbs. Needless to say, it was my every thought, I was depressed and felt ugly. Looking back, I was ugly, and I never want to be there again. I lost over fifteen lbs by how I’ve always thought it would happen, lifestyle changes. At the end of May I left for Japan. For those who don’t know, Japan is a country BIG on walking and all forms of public transportation. And biking. I was there for five weeks where I walked everywhere, everyday. I also ate healthier foods, though I’m surprised because I did eat sweets everyday. Just goes to show what exercise can do. I came back home in the begining of July and started back at work, which I was frightened would be disaster on my progress, but thankfully I started bringing healthier things to work, like sushi and veggie burgers. In August I moved to college, and while I do have a car, I walk everywhere. I don’t keep unhealthy food in my suite and I have to walk a minimum of seven minutes just to go get food in the Caf.
I do want to lose more weight because I’m very happy with how easy it’s been falling off. I figure if I completely knock out sweets and soda (which I have regularly, goes to show about exercise AGAIN and portion control) and start hitting up our fabulous campus gym three times a week, I could be the lowest weight I’ve ever been IN MY LIFE.

yes, that’s me. I am sugar sensative which is another way of saying I’m literally a sugar addict, like an alcoholic. It sounds crazy but it’s backed by scientific evidence.
I’m reading “the sugar addict’s total recovery program” so I can beat this completely before Japan.
As i recall there was a period of a few months where I simply gave up all sugary things, but then I had some sort of sweet and ,as usual, didn’t know when to stop.
It has seven steps for me to do: eat breakfast with protein (I try to eat breakfast, it’s my favorite meal of the day), journal what i eat and how i feel (i’m going to hate that), eat three meals a day (they explain it, as an addict we don’t know when to stop. having three meals with no snacks trains our bodies to stop), take vitamins and potatoe before bed (it helps chemically), shift from white to brown foods (won’t be too hard, i enjoy whole grains), reduce or eliminate sugars (i will miss them, but so would an alcoholic), and create a new life (with the weight i could potentially lose or keep off and not being so tired always and being a happier person, i fully intend on doing this).
I really am ready to just be happy.

I’ve been feeling gross, more so.
The other weekend, my best friend and i hung out with a cute guy and i did almost all the talking! But who’s phone has he been blowing up? HERS! It’s only because she’s small and cute. FML.

This morning I struggled into my jeans.
This afternoon, I ate a banana instead of a bowl of ice cream with possibly chocolate chips and wafers.
Right on.

Fasting doesn’t work. I didn’t lose weight as i discovered at the WW weigh in. I had lost 1.6 again!
I have to stick to using my points, drinking water and exercising.
This last week I hadn’t been in two and I hadn’t lost anything, kinda a relief seeing as how I felt like a big (not) loser.
I’m fairly certain the girl I’m going to SB with isn’t going to be able to lose the weight before me seeing as how she eats crap just about everyday, but I’d LOVELOVELOVE to get into my twelves without feeling ugly. Getting into my tens is pushing it.
I went to an intense spinning class this morning, I still want to throw up.

I’ve been attempting a juice fast but I mostly juice and slightly eat, so it’s been soso.
Not eating and juicing instead gives me a sense of self control. I’m probably going to pursue it more long term.
I lost 1.6 the first week and.. you guessed, another 1.6 the second.
But that’s not good enough for me.
I’m writing a research paper for school on vegetarianism and I refuse to be an overweight and unhealthy veg.

Again with this lack of planning on my part.
This time I was on the water and dairy, but by the time I calculate my remaining points for dinner, I rlly see what I could’ve gone without this afternoon.
I’ll be better tomorrow.
Also, I worked out yesterday for the first time in like, two months. Kicked my toosh, but I got six workout points :]
So far so good.

So far it’s been okay. I’ve already used up 24 of my 31 points, I haven’t had any water, enough fruits/veggies, haven’t taken a multivitamin, and I need to eat two dairies. Needless to say I need to plan better.
I calculated my subway dinner last night and a veggie sub on flatbread with american cheese, lettuce, onions, black olives, cucumbers, and southwest sauce plus a cookie (5 points solo) is a whopping fourteen points! The Honey oat bread takes me down one point but still. It rlly lets you see what’s up.
Oh yeah, I’m starting at 190.2 lbs.

I wouldn’t say I’ve fallen off the wagon. Here’s a recap:
Friday night was a good friend’s birthday, so a bunch of us went to her cabin to have a bonfire and drink. I don’t rlly consider drinking as a weight gain because I don’t drink every week, but while I was there I ate some birthday cake and ice cream that night. I don’t see that as horrible because I got up the next morning, faced with donuts and more cake but passed it all up. That night though I drank again and had like two chocolate dipped marshmellow things? They were okay but the next morning I again passed it up.
Then tonight I had a piece of ice cream cake, but I didn’t have a second.
I’m still pretty okay with myself, I just realize it can’t be so often.
I still know how to say no.

Oh yeah, I’m still on this. I haven’t had any junk food, chocolate, cereals.. anything in almost two weeks now. I can already see my tummy getting flatter!
I’m also going to be joining weight watchers. My lack of junk food plus my love of green tea can do nothing but help melt the weight off when I get into the program :] I just need to get back into exercising..
Size ten by March 28th here I come!