it’s something everyday here, from riding a filthy bus with an autistic child to asking the german boy to stay to watching children scream during physical therapy. quitting school and moving to peru was the best thing I could’ve done to fulfill this one.
twentybytwenty has written 4 entries about this goal
a random assortment that I’ve done:
-wearing red lipstick
-telling a friend an uncomfortable truth
-calling the counseling center
-getting my cartilage pierced
in many ways, this is the most important goal on my list. I started out doing one concrete thing a day, but gradually it has shifted into more of a change of attitude. there are days when perhaps nothing comes up, but I do not consider it a failure. it’s more about doing things that I recognize I’m afraid of when they come up in my life, rather than always actively seeking them out. The biggest thing that I’ve been doing that I’m afraid of is letting go of certain labels and strict ways of being that aren’t actually helping me to grow. for example, for a long time, I just didn’t “go out” or really drink at all at school. this isn’t a bad thing, but my motivations were not the best. it wasn’t some sort of moral code that kept me from going out, but rather a fear of new situations and interacting with people. I’ve gradually been going out here and there, having a good time, but still quitting while I’m ahead and not letting it interfere with the rest of my life. And it’s good!
a friend who knows of my list told me the other day that eleanor roosevelt said, “do one thing every day that scares you.” my goal wasn’t based off of this, but I’m glad such an admirable woman shared my same sentiment!