Stop being depressed

I’ve been feeling really bad lately, and I should be feeling pretty good because I’m on vacation. I’m a little pissed off because I have so much crap to deal with when I get home. I need to find a job and fast! Our bills are getting out of control; we thought that one income would cover everything, but we were wrong. I’m depressed because I don’t know what to do with myself and I should know at this stage in my life. I had to cry a couple of times because I was so frustrated. I’m trying not to go back on the meds because I’m trying not to depend on them so much and I’m trying to lose the weight that the meds put on me, but I can’t stop feeling like this. :(

I took one of my mood stabilizers last night so I could sleep. I pulled out my antidepressants one by one and looked at them. I’m trying not to go back on them, but it looks like I may not have a choice. :(

I was about this close to going back on my antidepressants last night. I feel like I’m trapped and there’s no way for me to get out. I’ve been doing well in the last couple of months, but now I feel like I’m about to relapse. :(

I can’t say that I’m done with this goal, not just yet. I’m not that confident about it. I’m not depressed right now, but it comes and goes every now and then. I’m not on the meds anymore, which is great. I feel a much better, but I don’t want to say that I’m cured yet.

I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t think anyone can help me at this point. I just don’t know what to do anymore.

I’m a little irritated, but I don’t think that I’m depressed anymore. Things that used to get me down don’t bother me as much. I’m not going to say that I completed this goal just yet. Maybe I’m just having a good week! :)

Today has been the first time in weeks that I’ve been really depressed. I’m flat broke, my check from the military is over a week late, I’m having a hard time finding a job, and I can’t trust my husband as far as I can throw him. I need a strong drink!!!

I had to go into a treatment center for 10 days because my depression and anger got much MUCH worse! I’ve been home since Wednesday and I feel much better. It took me a week and a half to cry because the meds stopped me from crying. My husband and I are getting along a little better, but we still have more work to do.

I really need to stay on my medication, but when I took it a few days ago, I felt tired and crappy, or maybe it was just me. My husband and I are doing ok for now, but he’s been in a bad mood about his job. At least he has a job! I’ve been job hunting for months and I can’t even land a job! :( Now I feel really bad.

I feel worse now than I did before I took my medication. I don’t think my husband loves me anymore. He says he does, but I don’t believe him. I think there’s someone else, but he says that I’m blowing it out of proportion. He’s leaving with the kids next weekend to meet up with an old high school friend of his and her three kids. Did I happen to mention that she’s divorced? I don’t like it, but there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m sick to my stomach about this.