get my tubes tied

I can’t remember to take my pills. I also cannot ever fathom being pregnant. I have too many issues with my body and just with other people in general (not my husband, but I don’t think I could handle a child that was born from our relationship, and adopting has always been a goal of mine). I want to go to the doctor soon.

I’m 25, perfectly able to have kids, but I have my heart set on adoption (I have felt this way since I was 23). I have thought this through and it is something I know I want to do-it will work out well for my goals and lifestyle. My husband isn’t happy about it, but honestly I feel very repressed-I don’t see why I should do something I don’t want to do simply because he wants bio kids (but obviously can’t give birth). I don’t want any more days of “Oh no, am I pregnant?!” and honestly, I am far too selfish to give up caffeine, cheese, manicures and highlights for a pregnancy, not to mention my figure. I love toddlers and kids, but babies disgust me because they’re too small and dependent and I can’t teach them things the way I would a toddler or small child. Anyway, now that I’ve ranted, I need to find a doctor who is willing to do this for me. I know even though I’ll be 26 next year when I go, they will still consider me “too young”. Oh, of course because I’m a woman, I don’t know my own mind (sarcasm) so how would I know if I want a tubal ligation or not?