Step out of my comfort zone

My comfort zone is pretty big (in some respects) and i’m usually open to ideas/ adventures, but there is one area that scares me and that’s relationships and feelings. This week im going t try and step out of my comport zone and speak from my heart, exactly what i feel (positives only), and tell him how i feel before he leaves….. im nervous and excited just thinking about this!
first step: admitting to myself and 43things…

i went to a class and found it extremely difficult! just to sit and focus and control your mind was too much for me and when i closed my eyes my mind raced (although with my eyes open and watching the sunset i felt peaceful and calm). 15 mins into it i had decided meditation was not for me and that i wasnt coming to another class. afterwards the monk explained that it is hard to detach yourself and it takes effort but it will be worth it in the end. so i was completely out of my comfort zone and look at how easy i was willing to give up – i must try again and again, and practice pactience (if i have any…)

and ended up in a potentially dangerous situation. i believed in him and things turned out well. and my faith in people has been restored!
its a shame that i always look at the negatives to a situation – pessimist or realist?

its silly but i so apreciate my bike and how its put me out of my comfort zone. i have to be aware of the cars and its dangerous, good exercise, makes me responsible etc.

the people are a little unsettling, work is demanding, and the hours(for me) arent that good, but whilst i was working, the thoughts of never coming back entered my head. i thought ‘why?’ and i realised it was because it wasnt familiar or comfortable to me!

i realised i create alot of routine for myself and plan my day, so spontenaety doesnt happen much. im learning where my comfort zone is, and so im now going to breach it a little!

but i had lunch on my own today. i dont know why but it was always of putting to sit and eat alone, and it did feel pretty weird but good too. i ran into a friend who had done the same and i realised its pretty normal thing to do, i think ill do it more often, it was calming!