Let go of the past

i have come so far with this.

i hate that my whole past issues have to focus around a man, but everything else stems from him and our relationship that its hard.

i often think that it is just easier to forget my past and literally cut him out of my life, but i don’t know if I could actually go through the rest of life without talking to him again. tis weird

i found out a few weeks ago that he was having a child with someone else. that was really weird how i felt. although i don’t wana be with him, it really upset me that he was havin a kid with her. i had never thought that we would be having kids with other ppl. as strange as that seems, that particular part of things hadnt crossed my mind.

now i have got used to the idea its ok, and if that is wot he wants then im happy for him. just weird how things are now.

i’m back to wanting to cut him out my life

This is a hard one. esp as my past has been the same for 4 and half years it is taking a bit of gettin used to.
but went on a date last nite that went really well, and i was so happy to be enjoyin myself and i didnt really think about my ex. mayb a tad, but it was so great bein out and doin wot i wanted that i know this goal is achieveable.
It is just guna take a lil more time!

On this day
I see clearly
Everything has come to life
A bitter place and a broken dream
And we’ll leave it all
Leave it all behind

I’ll never long for what might have been
Regret won’t waste my life again
I won’t look back I’ll fight to remain