I’ve got a stable system in place (somewhat) that is going to work. And really bringing ni outside help – finding a psychiatrist, possibly getting on meds or something – is “what’s missing” for me, for right now. Later on I’m sure (especially with external structure) that I’ll find more. But between the self-help stuff that I’ve adopted and finding a psychiatrist, I’m okay at calling this “completed” in the sense that it has been transferred into other goals.
November has written 5 entries about this goal
So, I haven’t done much on most of these goals – well, that’s not true, I’ve been “sleeping like a normal person” pretty well- the last day or two. It seems like I’m “on the wagon”(metaphorically) doing the habits I want to do maybe 3 days out of seven… still! That’s way better than 0 days out of seven. And it gives lots of easy room for improvement, I suppose:)
So far I’ve managed to go to bed by midnight instead of staying up all night. I’ve gotten off my butt a little bit about job hunting. I talked to my mom about my financial problems and she’s going to lend me some money soon to help with things. I’ve made an effort with friends not to make it all about me. And I’ve tried to spend less of my day on facebook. I started actually leaving the house and going for walks instead of only leaving when school or some errand compelled me. And I’ve slowly been decluttering some of my tech junk and moving it from my clothes drawers where I should be keeping clothing to my shelves where I meant to keep it in the first place, and moving the papers and books from the shelves to the recycling or to neat piles or to the bookshelf, but I’m not as far along as that all makes it sound:). I still mess up at things a bit. I missed a day with each of those things and its only been a week. I meant to meditate and have barely done this at all yet, even though I know its a good thing to do from studies and experience. I emailed a volunteer person about doing some volunteer work. He’s an atheist and his cause is doing nice stuff to let people know atheists are nice people. Well, that’s cool, I am an atheist and I like to do nice stuff. I also think it’ll help me, too, to feel like I’m doing something that helps people:). Waiting to hear back from him on where/when he wants to meet. I’ve been working on my hygiene a bit… I guess I keep trying different areas to see what kinds of good things feel good. “Surveying” being a better person. Yes:) Or maybe I’m just coming out of a really bad depressive jag… this particular trait runs in my family, both my mom and dad get depression sometimes, and dad who gets it worse than I is just about as woo-ey as anyone, so, to pre-empt anyone saying it, not enough praying to their deity of choice ain’t my problem;) The big things that help me sanity-wise are exercise, diet, getting enough water, meditation, taking care of my appearance, doing nice things for people, and working on my transition.
Importantly, I’ve admitted to myself that what I WAS doing does not work for me and I need to do something better. I’m committed to effective solutions over just shooting out idea after idea.
I have 3 drawers of arts and crafts stuff and tech stuff that I went through and cleaned. Two are now empty and the third is much better organized. I now have two more drawers for clothing, which is fantastic!