Quit my job

So its been a week, and I still have my job. Things are still going according to plan.. except for.. Well.. let me explain..
With my newly developed mentality that I’m going to be leaving soon, The Restaurant I used to have a crush on has turned its back on me. Ouch. I should really just not care and realize that this could help me achieve my goal. If I’m really trying to leave, I shouldn’t be upset that my sarcasm and apathy are being pointed out. But I am.. and its probably because I wanted to leave on a high note. Ya know, Its better to burn out then to fade away.. Im thinking to far into this. I should go in from now until the end of January smiling, polite, on-time, and ready to work. Its only 32 more days. 32 more days to do things right and leave missed instead of shunned.

I have another goal that Im quickly beocoming late for (“go to bed early, get up early” .. its 3:45am) So I will try to keep this short.. Even better, I will set up a sequnce of events to help you understand my decison..

1) 2 Years ago, I was 18, out of work, 132lbs with perfect skin

2) I started working at local expensive exotic restaurant.

3) A Year rolled by with no problems. I was very much enchanted with the whole scene; I loved, and was loved back.

4) During Year 2, I started to notice small inconvienences. Weight gain, blemishes, oak grill scented embeded in my folicles and dissolution of grateful attitudes. But I wanted to make it work.

5) I am 20 and starting to notice that most model’s careers end at 25, and I still get comments saying I could do it.. (Im 6’1 and pretty cute facially minus acne)

6) I pick up some modeling oppurtunities, and work starts to notice that Im taking one day off a week to persue it.

7) We are entering peak season for the holidays, and I dont want to hang around until Mother’s Day. I have offers to do other things with my life financially NOW but I dont know how to tell my Boss because from what I can tell and im relatively observant She really really likes me and wants me there.

So my options were stick around forever for the sake of my Boss’s happiness and the inability to find someone who can do my job (mwhhahha;) i do EVERYTHING) or take a risk, quit, break my boss’s heart and persue modeling while I still can. The latter sounds pretty awesome..

Wish me luck! Woudl like to have this sone before Febuary.