In order to EVER get some sort of peace, happiness, whatever… I need to find balance. I need to be able to breathe, without feeling that everything is about to crash on top of me.
ALL OR NOTHING. Now or never.
Starving or binging. Exercising daily or not getting out of the bed. Idleness or wearing myself out with work. Staying out too long, or not seeing the sun for days. Talking too much, with too many. Or not even answering the phone to my friends. All these need to go away. I really should change this inefficient, self-desctructive thinking pattern. And this behaviour. ASAP.