Have my first kiss

Well my boyfriend.. He invited me to his party a few months ago and he has a dirtbike.. He let me ride on it with him.. yes.. with him.. well I guess thats not amazing but yeah.. He doesn’t even hug me though.. so maybe it is. I held onto him by his shoulders the first few times.. then by putting my arms around him the last few times.. It was great. I await the day we finally kiss. I think we should start hugging first though lol.. He is my first bf.. then he stopped going to my school so i got a second and third, then broke up with third and the second one moved away. so now im back with him :D I think he is the cutest one anyway.. The second boyfriend hugged me, but his dad had a job that made them have to move away.. tear.. well anyway.. I still like the first one better. He is really cute and he is nice. He gets a little rough with his friends but never with me. My second boyfriend actually hurt me really bad lol.. i dont think on purpose.. i actually started it i think.. We have a chinaberry tree and i accidentally threw one at him and we started fighting and one got shot into my eye and i went inside and locked myself in my room. He knows karate too and I hit him and he started like blocking and fighting back.. I really wanted to stop and he said “the only way I will stop is if you get off the trampoline.” and my trampoline has a net so there is a small entrance on one side which takes some time to get through. so i was with some bruises for awhile.. thats another reason I didn’t like the second one. The second and third are both kinda dumb.. the first one is smarter than them so I like him better anyway.

One time when I was like 6 years old I went to a birthday party.. And me and my best friend’s cousin named Andy (6yrs)were playing a house game.. And we pretended to get married and all and my friend said you may kiss the bride and blah blah blah. I learned about it when I was 11 that his name was Andy lol. I brought it up to my friend’s mom when we all got together and she said was it Andy or Ben? I knew his name began with an A I thought he was Andrew but it was Andy. When my friend figured out (she was only 3 when the birthday party happened) she slapped me lol. She was really play slapping but she kept doing it every few minutes.. it got annoying so i told on her lol. she didnt really get in trouble but she was told to stop and she did.. So that was the first time I kissed a boy on the lips. But it didn’t count since I was only 6.. Or did it? Hehehehehe

I have been dying to have my first kiss.. It’s kind of weird I have never even hugged my boyfriend before.. Sure we’ve said we loved eachother and stuff but we’ve never even just hugged. I don’t really think that is fair. I am going to wait though. I am not going to break up with him just because he doesn’t even hug me.. Well I’ve said enough..