meditate

i want to meditate more, i really do but i’m in college and i get overtired as well as stressed. so… sometimes i just nap instead.
this probably isn’t as good for me as meditation but i figure my body needs the rest so hopefully it’s helping for now, until i can get my life more in order to meditate. (though i do manage a few times a week, but i want every day)

which was the hardest part (i hope) now i just have to remake it a habit, i had it before.

i haven’t been meditating this semester but it’s very clear to me that i should. i need to throw in a little yoga as well.

what more could you ask for?

stopped for a while but did it twice today, though the one in the morning was more of a prep for the day. (and made me late for work) but i was really looking forward to my afternoon meditation.

meditating a majority of the week. pretty good. but i still have to work on focus.

i did it a few times really well but lately i just float off and can’t seem to get myself to stay focused.

i never really liked the idea of using music when i meditate, it seemed imposing somehow. but today, with my neighbor’s hiphop beats bumping through my walls, it was a must. so i put on a little enya and had the best meditation of my life, so it just goes to show you i guess. i usually focus on listening to my breath to keep thoughts at bay but listening to notes and enya’s flowy music totally put me in it and deeper than ever before. compared to today every other meditation was nothing.

but they keep turning into naps…

i don’t care, if all i can do is relax then at least i’m making progress, besides, clearly my body needs sleep if i can’t stay awake.

i just completely stopped. i need get back on it, maybe tomorrow.