Pick a theme song for myself

I can’t believe I haven’t done this yet. Anyways, GEKKOU won’t do. I don’t like the melody. So, it’s either SHION or REPETITION OF HATRED by Dir en grey. It’s a real complicated choice, since I love both of them.

However, considering my insane crush on the band’s guitarist, I might just go and pick THE FATAL BELIEVER. I didn’t like the idea, but… it kind of makes sense, when you look at it THIS way. Hmmm… and I totally LOVE the melody. I’ll think about this one.

The part that made me go ‘nooo…’ was: “please grant my small wish – love me to the marrow of my bones”. I thought it was beautiful, but stupid… but now I think that it’s beautiful and awesome.

So… Almost done.

• REPETITION OF HATRED by Dir en grey
• GEKKOU by MUCC
• SHION by MUCC

At first, there were loads of candidates, but I narrowed it down by being extremely picky about lyrics – I didn’t pick anything depressing, since that’s what I’m trying to avoid. I didn’t pick any song that is about love [and there were quite a few of them]. Surprisingly, all my favorite songs were depressing, even if they sounded real cool… and I know that I’ll write songs that won’t be cheerful… so what the hell am I supposed to pick? xDDDD

GEKKOU surprised me – I accidentally came accross it, and it reflects my current state quite well. However, I’ve never heard it. On the other hand, SHION is pretty cool, and I know the translation… REPETITION OF HATRED is the most aggressive out of all the three songs – and I mean VERY, VERY aggressive… so, I can’t pick all three… This decision will have to wait.

I mean… I could just pick REPETITION OF HATRED, since Dir en grey are my total gods, but it doesn’t sound like a very good method. I’ll overlook lots of different things.

If I won’t be able to pick, then I’ll just choose something from Maximum the Hormone, or an instrumental song. This shit is really getting crazy.

I’ve had a theme song, and it’s still a really special song to me, but I really want to start a new period of my life. It’s an EXTREMELY beautiful, powerful, but most of all INSANELY DEPRESSING song. I want to leave all of that behind. I need a new one. I need to change who I am.