start dating

On my dog-walk this evening, I passed a guy walking 2 of his, and he said “Hello, Cutie!” (presumably to my canine, even though I felt like the comment might possibly, and even probably! {i just have a sense for these things} have been directed towards me). A few minutes later it started getting dark so I turned around and i guess he had the same idea because we crossed paths again. I said something, he said something, I agreed. Then he asked my dog’s breed and name and I did the same. He asked my name, I asked his. He said my name was really nice and asked where it came from. I told him, he called me a cutie pie and sorta hit on me. (I became positive he had directed the comment towards me earlier, too!) I told him I’d see him soon and kept walking.

I’m assuming we’ll meet again on another walk. I would have flirted back, but he’s too old for me. Why lead him on when I know I don’t want to go down that path?

Is it just me, or are the only men who admit attraction to me much older?? And I’m sure these 30 somethings know I’m in my early 20s.

I also think they know that I’m definitely attracted to them too… Why oh why can’t I just get into a guy my own age!! or even 30 is fine!

and, ya know, it’s odd how ever since I told myself I’m “ready” that all these men seem to be digging me – it seems that when i changed my attitude, I totally changed my signals!! And it definitely helps to be getting out more – increases the total number of fish you meet, so you’re likely to catch more!

he left today – he was sweet, caring, handsome, and has changed my mind about men. We hit it off right away and he was so open with me, thought i was very cool, and we really enjoyed spending time together. Good guys do exist. Connecting with someone will happen again. I wonder though if I just got lucky or if another guy like this and feelings like these will come my way not too far away. I don’t expect 3 dates in 4 days again, or for the next guy to live so far away, but I do want each date to be as great as these have been, with neither person wanting the end of the night to come.

I am officially ready to date – hope it happens again soon… like as soon as possible. I am so ready for more

great dates with a great guy who just happens to live half-way across the world…

whatev. so worth it. i love feeling this kind of happy. and feeling so. incredibly. wanted!

guess who has a date tonight? that’s right.
with a (oh so attractive) guy i met on my flight back home.
feels very weird, very strange.
why am i always attracted to older men?

goal: don’t get shy and act like a ditz. be my confident charming self.