lose 15 pounds

I just realized that I checked this off without writing a final entry.

I got back to 107lbs like I wanted, and I’m fairly in shape. I used the Debbie Siebers’ “Slim in 6” CD religiously (as in twice a day), and occasionally played tennis. It took me about 3 weeks to drop from 115 to 107. In total I’ve dropped 18 pounds.

Wow, long time no update. I did finish that fast, but I haven’t been to the gym/weighed myself in two weeks. I’ve started my summer classes and have no time between that and my job. I know I should have expected classes to be ridiculously hard since it’s the Ivy League, but come on… it’s summer. Please give us a break!

So, I don’t know how much I weigh but I do know I’m thinner than when I started my fast. My thighs are no longer in danger of touching, but I have noticed what I fear may be the beginning of cellulite. I am still working on losing weight, but I’m slowing down to focus more on classes.

Positives:
1. I went from buying lunch at work 3-4 times a week to 0 times a week (now I just bring fruit/yogurt/carrots for lunch)
2. I went from eating moderate amounts of candy once a week to a few pieces once every other week (no, I will never give candy up completely)
3. I devote all my free time to walking around the city
4. Cut out empty carbs (fatty popcorn, white rice, bread, etc)

Negatives:
The gym opens at 6am and I have to leave for class at 8am. There’s not enough time for gym!

I really want to speed things up, so I added gym time to my fast. So far so good, but sitting in an office all day does horrors to your appetite.

Today I started a one week fruit and water fast. Call me impatient, but at least it works. I would do a water fast, but I want to be able to go to the gym. I have three weeks before I start an intense class/work/lab schedule to find a satisfying balance, so I’m aiming for one week of weight loss and two weeks of figuring out the best way to maintain.

This shouldn’t be too hard seeing as I no longer have bad food habits to break. When not fasting I have a general diet of 1000-1200 calories with no weight gain or loss. At this point, I’m just tired of changing my mind and ready for results so I don’t have any time to moan and angst.

About two months ago I was on track with this goal. After I got down to 107, I started worrying that I looked unhealthy. I looked at myself in the mirror and decided I should gain a little and see what looks best.

Now I know that I definitely do not want to weigh more. No matter what people say, this time I will not change my mind. I know what weight feels best on me and I will reach it.

Okay, time to crack down on this. I fasted yesterday and snacked today but got sick. Tomorrow starts a five day fast. If I make it, I’ll let myself wear my new shorts on Tuesday.

Also, I’m taking up a new excersize plan. Since going to the gym is too strenuous while fasting, I looked up some pilate/ballet/contortionist stretches. I would like to have thin and lean legs like a ballerina, not muscle legs like a runner.

I looked up my body fat percentage and found it was about 3.5%. I have 3.7 pounds of fat. I am 107 lbs (48.5kg) and I was only looking to lose two more to be 105, but now I’m wondering if maybe I should just shoot for four pounds. Technically I wouldn’t have gotten rid of all the fat on my body, but it’s a nice thought.

I decided not to give up on this goal. If I still look fine after the weight loss then no problem, but if I look too skinny I’ll gain weight back. So, on a good note, I’ve made up my mind and I won’t have to constantly be worrying whether I should work to gain weight or work to lose weight.

I thought about changing my mind about losing weight. I went to an Aikido class and had to wear a t shirt instead of my normal long sleeves. My arms looked really really sickly skinny. Maybe 105 isn’t my weight. I wish there was a way to make my arms larger but my thighs smaller. Oh well. I’ll just keep losing until I’m satisfied with my legs, then I’ll lift weights or something to gain back on my arms.

Food is pretty important to me. So I gave up bread, meat, cheese, and sweets for Lent.