Just wanted to say...

looking at my list of goals, most of them are 100% easily obtainable and i guess people must wonder what i do with my life if i can’t go out to the library ten minutes away to get a card. or that i can’t simply put on some shorts and go for a jog at night or before school. or that i haven’t been able to go get my driver’s license even though it’s been over two years since i was able to. or to even go shopping – one of the most easiest things in the world – for a prom dress. my prom is in a month.

there’s also my community hours which i’ll never finish.

i don’t know. i just don’t know. i sit here and get nothing done, nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing.

it’s been a long time since i’ve gone through a nervous breakdown. it was pretty bad, all the crying and panic attacks for a couple days, but i think the worst of it is over now.

i’m just glad this time i didn’t do anything stupid – and that it wasn’t set off by anything highly depressing. it’s just a way to deal with myself at times, it’s good to get crying done with so i can live for a while without tears.

that sounds kind of depressing but i’m a lot happier thinking the crying is out of the way and i can go and think, “why should i cry more?” when i feel the urge.

(:

friends make you think about a lot of things.

they are usually supportive, but their views are obvious if they’re against something. they let me make my own choices though, and are silent when i have to sit and talk about things to them. they offer advice (no matter how useless) about what i should do – and the advice isn’t “i told you so.”

friends. it’s nice to spend a couple hours with them once in a while to catch up.

my parents took my internet away because i apparently suck at life, idk.

so here i am, sneaking on another computer at 1 am in the morning. sigh.

i like how they think taking my internet away will do something. it only makes me more deprived-ish.

thanks for the invite to this goal, it’s pretty neat.

happy new year to everyone, of course, we’ll all be saying this for probably another day until the new years is finally over and we can get used to writing down 2008 as the year instead of 2007.

my year has been quiet so far, i haven’t done much. i should probably get a proper job and finish my back-to-school essays before getting back to school.

alright, bbye.