Stand out from the crowd

I’m already standing out from the crowd by what I’m doing..I’m having a kind of relationship that is against the belief of my conservative family and I don’t know if I’m happy with that.
Why should we always adhere to norms and philosophies of other people who technically wrapped a metal chain around my ankle?
If I free myself from conservatism, I will certainly be happy with what I’m doing, at the same time I’m depressed because of losing my credibility and face-value in front of my family.

I want to look a bit older. I’m turning 23 this July and people still keep on saying I look like a 16 year old girl. So I bought some clothes today in which I appear mature and sexy.