So since returning from Thailand I’ve had a pretty rough time, but now getting my feet firmly onto solid ground again.
on Monday night though someone I owe money to contacted me by text, and again in the morning, and the next evening. I can’t reply because my phone is restricted. The said they’d sent emails but I haven’t received them.
When I got the text I was sick to the stomach, I feel guilty & bad that I’m unable to pay them what I owe them.
up until that point I’d felt nothing but positivity about getting my life & my business back into order & I was starting to get customers & make the progress that I really needed too.
now I feel guilty, I feel guilty about everything positive that I write online- in case they can see it & think that I’m living it up & not bothering to pay them back.
I write positive stuff online because its true- and because its good marketing. There’s lots of stuff I am able to do because I barter or swap services, but from the outside, to people that don’t know it looks like I’m living the life of luxury.
I have enjoyed not having any contact with those people because its given me the freedom to make good progress.
However, it is avoiding responsibilities by not contacting them :(
I would like to be able to delegate dealing with this to someone else, but don’t know which someone else is the right person, obviously it needs to be someone I trust because they’ll know my intimate financial details.
As I’m writing this- I have one person in mind so I’m going to contact them now & see what happens.
Please say a prayer for me that I will do what is the right thing to do, no matter how uncomfortable, or how much fear I have around it.