Lose 100 lbs.

Hopefully, I won’t find it again!

I’m down -8 from a baseline of 265, which doesn’t seem like a whole lot, given how long I’ve been looking at this goal, but it’s better than going back up.

Given that I haven’t been making a concentrated effort beyond keeping a food diary and drinking more water, I think it’s pretty amazing.

Mini goals:

1)Cut soda down to once every other day instead of once a day.
2)Start walking around the lake as many days as possible
3)Read more. (I snack when I’m on the computer, but not when I’m reading.)
4)Eat my rice cakes and PB instead of chips when I get hungry at 930AM

I’ve been eating more sweets than I was at the beginning of the year and I haven’t been able to kick the soda craving yet.

On the other hand, I’m actually keeping a food diary again and that’s making me aware of all the little bits and snips of candy I’ve been having.

Well, I’m starting work on this again.

I’m down 7 pounds from baseline of 265. (Meaning I’m 258).

Okay, I’m keeping a blog now on this topic. It’s got a lot more of the gory details, like a food diary and related topics and random musings that are brought up throughout this adventure.

I dont’ know how long I’ll keep up with it, but since I expect a readership of like… zero, maybe longer than I think.

www.foodfamilyandfear.blogspot.com

I just ate half a box of Thin Mints over the course of the morning (about 3 hours).

I don’t feel a shred of guilt either.

It’s definitely not in keeping with my goals.

Questions I have for myself:

1) Why did I eat half a box? – I’m not sure. They tasted really good. I haven’t had them in ages. (There’s a reason I don’t freeze my GS cookies). I’m extra tired because I’m dumping caffiene.

2) Why don’t I feel guilty? I’m not guilty, but I am bewildered. I think this is actually a positive step. It means that I’m not attaching the same emotional content to the cookies as I used to. I used to feel horrible about something like this. Maybe letting go of guilt over food choices will help me make more clear-headed decisions.

3) I knew I’d pay for it (I’m allergic to them, yet addicted), but I still ate them. Why? – This one I don’t have an answer for right now. I think it’s something I need to really meditate on. Could it be related to the fact that I didn’t drink my usual amounts of caffiene/ have a normal breakfast this morning?

And a couple commitments:

I will not over-react and try to OD on exercise. It’s pointless and will only make me less likely to establish/keep a real routine.

I will ration my cookies into snack bags and only take 1 with me to work.

I will meditate/journal on why I am so compulsive about Thin Mints. None of the other GS cookies I have tempt me to eat more than 2-3, which is reasonable.

1. Drink 8 glasses of water a day.

2. Exercise each night.

3. Cut chocolate & beef out of my diet (including soft drinks/ hot drinks) for one month.

4. Reduce soda to a once a week treat.

Okay, I gave myself some concrete goals for a month. At the moment, I’ve already messed up about half of them. Looks like I’ll be trying a new set of goals next month.

I’m trying to make a lifestyle change rather than simply doing a diet. I don’t want to lose the wieght and then gain it all back. I’m focussing on raising my general health level and this is part of that.

I haven’t found the proper motivation yet. I’m not motivated by appearance. Without my glasses everyone looks like vaguely human shaped blobs and my face in the mirror isn’t really any different. So, that doesn’t help me.

I have noticed that my clothes aren’t fitting properly right now and the money motivation (as in not buying new clothes) might actually work. I can take things in, but I can’t let them out.

sighs I really don’t know what I’m going to do right now.

1. Take a multi-vitimin every day (2 weeks so far on this) 1/31/07 edit: I’ve been doing this every day since Jan. 2. I’m pleased with the results. I have a lot more energy now. 2/19/07 – This mini-goal is complete.

2. Drink 8 glasses of water a day (2 days on this one) 1/31/07 edit: This one’s been hit or miss this month. Some days I do better than others. 2/19/07 I did not do this every day, so I’ll include in again this month.

3. Walk on the treadmill each night. 1/31/07 edit: I haven’t done this once since I put the goal down. 2/19/07 – snickers No, this didn’t happen. The darn things got dust on it now.

4. Meet my partner to walk each week. 1/31/07: We’ve decided that due to the cost of gas, this is going to be untenable unless we can justify it as part of business meeting (deduct the milage). We do most of our business meetings digitally or need pen and paper, so it’s not easy to do that.

5. Cut chocolate, grapes & beef out of my diet (including soft drinks/ hot drinks) for one month. 1/31/07 edit: The grapes are gone. I didn’t even have an Oatmeal Raisin cookie last night. The beef, well, that’s different. I’ve had it far too often this month. The chocolate, I just don’t know if that’s ever going to leave my diet. I think I need to consider cutting it back as opposed to cutting it out. 2/19/07 The grapes are out. I even was putting them onto a fruit tray and managed to not give into temptation and have just one. It’s time to focus on the beef and chocolate.

I was on the treadmill. I did 1.08 miles when the phone rang. (This is my business phone, so I try to answer it.) It came up as an “unavailable number”. So, I called my business partner. Our numbers are all of two digits apart, so I figured they’d call her next. She managed to track the number back to a telemarketing company that specializes in political campaigns. rolls eyes

Still, I managed to do a mile and that’s better than nothing. :)

Well, for the first time in forever, I got onto the treadmill and the scale tonight.

Weigh in 265 (back to baseline.)

Exercise: 1.75 miles.

Thoughts: I need to make sure I’ve got a longer, good book with me. When I have something like a good book, I’ll keep going longer. I think going for distance rather than speed was a good option for the first regular exercise besides my once a week walks.