find my biological parents

BORN december 27th 1988 in elizabeth NJ, adopted at six months old i know that i have bout 9 biological siblings an have met my mother once when i was 8 an do not know where she is i have also met my oldest sister tia…last time i was 10 she is about 26 now…the number i had has since been dissconected an have no way to find them since they have moved since then….

i was adopted when i was 6 months old…i met my biological mother when i was nine and then lost contact with her….i know that i have 4 sisters and 4 or 5 brothers biologically…..i’ve met my oldest sister 2 times….the last time i was 10…its been 8 years since ive seen my mom and 9 years since ive seen my sister… their phone number doesnt work and when i sent them a letter it was sent back saynig that no one lived there….i dont know how to find them…i just want to see where i come from and i want to meet my sisters and brothers and see if were anything alike…i feel like theres a part of me missing and i cant get to it….i feel empty…mothers day was yesterday….and i couldnt even say happy mothers day to my biological mom….i said it to my adoptive mom…she asked me if i ever think of my biological mom and i told her no…but i do and i wish i could meet her but im afraid to ….if she didnt want me then why would she want to meet me now?