quit smoking forever!!

wow, so many things have changed and i haven’t been on here in this yr’s time period. it was one year ago this month that i quit smoking cold turkey, baby! it wasn’t as hard as i had made it seem. yes, a lot of things got better at the same time i quit and i had started making conscious decisions about my life and actually sticking to them, but it was still a matter of will power. each day got easier and easier until it turned into wks and months and now a yr! it can be done and without much thought.

well, not amazingly successful, but i’ve only had 3 cigarettes in a week. that is a feat in itself since i am moving also or preparing for a move. i’m achy, grumpy and feening, but i’m calm so, i htink i’m okay. the headache is gone.

okay, so i’ve been studying about the effects of second-hand smoke on indoor pets and, of course, it’s horrible. i can’t have children so my cats are my babies and i don’t want to risk their health for my immediacy of sanity. we always want to do for others more than ourselves and it may sound strange or whatever, but they mean enough for me to stop. i just threw the pack away i bought earlier after 2 days w/o one so it’s a start again. with absolute resolve whatever the reason is. i will.

so, the title says it all. well, almost. i went 2 days w/o a cig. but stress, work, home, etc…. i quit off and on all the time-i just can’t make it stick. and i can’t chew gum and i don’t like candy and i don’t want patches, so….just gotta resolve to cold turkey it.