feel beautiful

Well, I have struggled with body image issues for as long as I can remember. I have some excess weight that I carry which is a big contributor to this issue. I am currently working on this which as I lose the weight I am sure that I will feel more beautiful. I struggle with the fact that me feeling beautiful is to tied to that. I am beautiful on the inside and wonder why I often don’t maintain my outside to match my inside. I sometimes wonder if it is a measuring stick, especially for guys ie. if you can love me how I look now then I trust you love me for who I am, but if it is based on my appearance then it is based on conditions and that can change at any time.