get over my fear of driving

Okay, I received a gas-pumping tutorial from a friend, ha. But I haven’t driven in about a month. It’s hard to make it a priority at the end of term when there are so many other things competing for my time.

Let’s set a goal that I’ll take the car out at least once more before I leave for the holidays. If I write it down that will make it happen, right?

I have driven two more times since I last made an entry about this, both alone! Yesterday I didn’t even have the huge building-up fear of it that I have had in the past. Maybe it’s getting easier?!

Stuff to start branching into:
- driving on bigger roads
- learn how to pump gas (yes, I still don’t know how!)

And again today. I was going to go alone, but it was raining, and the last time I drove while it was raining I failed my driving test. :| So I got a buddy to come with me this time.

So it would be a useful errand, I went to take my boots to get repaired. It was good to have a buddy with me as on the way back, there was a no left-turn and I had to navigate a different route to get back. Fortunately my co-pilot knew where we were going, I think it would have been pretty nerve-wracking to be alone, in the rain, on an unfamiliar route.

On the bright side, I do notice my comfort level at driving with someone has risen substantially. I do need to work on driving alone, but that’s a step in the right direction.

Okay, I took out the car again today, and trying not to make excuses, I booked it for tomorrow and the day after as well. I’m trying to do it like that so that it stops being scary, because it’s more frequent…

It’s worth noting that I drove on the parkway today, which I don’t think I have ever done. I drove with a buddy, but tomorrow I am going to try alone. I don’t plan on going as far as I did today, but that’s fine because driving alone is much harder for me.

Okay, I am going to journal my driving here so that I hold myself a bit more accountable for it. I have a terrible fear of driving, failed my license exam several times, finally got my license in January but haven’t driven much, which is an embarassment.

Last Saturday (8 days ago) I drove by myself alone for the first time – I just drove to the grocery store – but I did it! I really need to force myself to take the car out again. I hate how afraid I am of it.