report my progress

I am not really sure, if it is the right place, but I have to write it down somewhere. My godmother died today inexpectedly. She had a heart attack while doing the shopping. At least she have not died alone, as her youngest son were there. The ambulance tried their best, but could not help. As I’ve said it was inexpected. She was only 49, and I do not know about any signs of this. She had plans on the future, lots of them. Now those are to be done by her children.
I am still in a kind of a shock. I do not know what should I do, or what should I feel. I think, not everyone can prepare for a thing like this. Nor do I. Anyway, it is a picture of her, taken yesterday. It was the last time, I saw her. We had a great time. Farewell

I’ve decided to go on with this one, because it is easier to say the things here, then at the individual goals. Besides I could have some more to say, which doesn’t really belong to anywhere, but I want to write about it.
So for now, what I want to tell is, that I’ve left my job. Well, I did not feel, that my work was appreciated enough. Besides, sometimes I felt really awful, and I couldn’t concentrate too much on my work. It is hard to tell, but I just did not like to go there anymore at the end. But it is over, I am going to some interviews next week, and I do not want to wait to much for my next job, so I hope everything goes well.

What was really interesting? Yesterday, because I was on a summer farewell grill-party. It was rather good, with some talking, sitting, grilling, and of course, eating. Everyone brought something of course, I was the one responsible for the coffee – I never drink coffee. And one of the girls brought this kind of cookie on the picture – it is called “somlói galuska”, and it is sooo delicious. She baked it herself! So you can imagine, I was really full. I need to have something like a diet, I think.

Was for relax. I mean, I wanted to do so much, but the weather was colder than usual, so I just stayed at home. Well at least I could do some work around and in the house, but most of the time, it was relaxing. And I watched the Formula 1 Grand Prix, which this time was pretty interesting.
So to sum the weekend: I am relaxed!

I am going to a Spa to relax, and it seems like I do not have internet or computer near. And that’s not bad, at least I will be a little off. So feel yourself good everyone!

But I am tired. It was a hard day, and I feel a little bit frustrated. In the lasd days I’ve felt like I am going to fall; it was a very disturbing feeling. But today it all seemed okay, except that my boss has noted, that I work too much theese days. He suggested, that if there is something, we should sit down, and talk about, which made me frustrated. But I’ve said is is only, because I want a day-off. But in real, it is that I was affraid, that my work turns out to be a failure, which in fact was not true. So maybe I really take back a little.

So it is maybe a good time to have a little “flashback”. I am on probation, and it is ower by now. Probably I will stay, because I like the place, although the money is not much. These months I’ve had this chance to work 5 days a week, and it was a good experience. But I’ve had some stress as well, which of course wasn’t so good. Sometimes it was really bad, but I hope I can get over it, and feel myself good. At least I try to.

Work, work, work. I’ve had a little pause before, so it is kind of new to me, but I think, that I am doing a good job. And I hope, it stays like that. But Tuesday I’ve had a supper with my new collagues. It was ideal for us to get to know each other a little better, and of course we celebrated our new office as well.

But before that, I had to help at my workplace, because we moved to a new office. It is quite a nice place, I think, I will like it. But my friday was about unpacking, and repairaing. But I’ve managed to get to the randezvous-point at time, and it was a 2 hours route with a car. The place – Szálka – was really nice, and some of my friends were there as well. We had a place near a lake, we had sauna, and a great time – all the time. :) So, I’ve came back yesterday, it was too nights only, but I reaaally enjoyed it.

I think I must try harder, because I still do not feel the confidence I should. I am really good in some fields, but not that good. Maybe, I should be more sure about what I want to reach.