say yes to life

Most of the restaurants where I live are BYOB – but I don’t drink beer and a whole bottle of wine is too much. So, I started thinking about cocktails and realized that two of my favourite things in the world can be combined: lime green Argo Tea thermos mug = brilliant bring-your-own-cocktail shaker! Fill it up with ice and ingredients, take it with you, shake and pour into glass through the little drinking hole that keeps the ice inside, and enjoy cocktails wherever!

Sometimes I’m so bright I scare myself.

Yes. Yes. Yes.

‘no’.

more difficult than I thought. “Great goal”, I thought – “must add that”.

But now I’m all confused. In order to say “yes” to some things I really want in life I have to say “no” to other things I really want in life. And then that makes me feel I’m not saying “yes” to life at all, but rather “maybe, life” or “ask me again in a few years’ time, life” or “what was the question again?”

I know about giving up instant gratification for The Good That Is To Come, but how do you know which is instant gratification and which is your Life? I know I’m probably meant to say yes to the bad parts of life, all of it, but does that then mean I shouldn’t try to shape life consciously at all – or is that rather the ultimate yea-saying to or affirming my one precious life?

This is all just rambling, but I wish I didn’t have goals I don’t understand myself. Or do I? Are those ultimately the best goals, the ones I have to struggle to make sense of, the ones I have to stretch to try to reach?

I’m a fundamentally lazy woman, so I surprise myself constantly by choosing ‘not easy’.

_{[Edit: Note to self: perhaps I’m not “fundamentally lazy”. Perhaps that’s a limiting belief.]}