Fall in love

I do really want to find someone that i will love and he will love me unconditionally, but i can’t right know. I have to focus on getting out of here, and by the time i’ve done that, and travelled, and found somewhere to settle down, what time will i have left? I can’t do both, i couldn’t do that to someone i loved, i couldn’t drag them about the world, and i wouldn’t want to leave them; and if i were to give it all up for love,well, i don’t like to think about what i would do.

Love hurts. I’m too scared to get close to people cause they just leave in the end. I’m too scared to get close to people cause they’ll see how vunerable i am. Everytime i fall for someone i just get hurt, but i don’t think they were true love. I going to make this little story of mine public, maybe i’ll feel better after i talk about it. I was on the rebound and having a major breakdown. I needed to know i would find true love one day, so i read my gypsie fortune telling cards. It told me i would, and he would be from overseas(anywhere other than Scotland to me) and that i would know who he was because the first time i saw him i would feel sympathy. Ever since then i’ve been looking for this guy and it has broke my heart over and over trying to find him… i’ll just leave it at that because there is more but i haven’t found the whole story yet. But it still hurts.