be honest about my feelings

the more i share my feelings the easier it gets. I really was affraid of opening up but it is proving to be worth it. i am still a bit uncomfortable with the whole idea of being honest about all of my feelings because it still feels like it could backfire. i have begun to realize things about my relationships though since i’ve opened up about my feelings. hopefully someday i wont hesitate anymore when i get upset about something, and then it wont be as big of a deal to share my feelings. i think it is really a viscious cycle that has caused me to become passive aggressive and i should deal with it sooner better than later. this might be a good step in my whole self improvement kick. maybe the less stressful things i have in my life the more energy i’ll have for figuring out the other things that have been keeping me from feeling succussful and in turn preventing me from being satisfied with every aspect of my life. we’ll see.

I finally did this today. It felt really good to get the truth out. I had to tell someone special to me that I needed him to meet me half way in our relationship, and financialy. I don’t know that it fixed the problems, but it certainly brought light to the situation and made me feel like it was okay for me to feel this way. Hopefully I’m important enough to him that my needs will be met.

I really need to be more honest about how I feel instead of always worrying about hurting other peoples feelings, cause honestly it’s killing me to keep it all inside.