lie less

i NEED to stop lying about things, especially to people i’ve just met. i always lie to try to impress them, or to make myself feel better about my own shortcomings, and i’ve noticed that what usually start off as little white lies end up getting me into a lot of trouble.

I’m a compulsive liar, but very few people realize this.
I lie about very stupid things, usually when a conversation is getting boring or akward.
Sometimes when I just want attention.
I don’t even realize I’m doing it anymore.
I have never lied about anything serious, it’s always dumb stuff.
“My sister got her left leg amputated and now she has to wear a prosthetic.”
Or whatever.
It’s really fucking stupid, honestly.
And I’d kind of like to stop, or at least cut down, because it’s become kind of a controlling habit.
Compulsive lying actually runs in my family. I don’t know if it’s a genetic trait, I’ve never bothered to look it up, but more likely we just rub off on eachother.
My brother lies just as much as I do, if not more.
I guess we both kind of do it for self-amusement.
He always says, “If you can make yourself laugh, you don’t need anyone else”