carry a purse again

why can’t Ameribag.com ship to Canada? i don’t like third-party shopping online; i like to buy things direct from the source you know – so i can deal with the company more directly if i have a problem. plus, i’d be saving myself mega $$$ – buying this bag for retail in Canada cost $100+

sad.

like most women, i constantly carried a purse, and switched purses when it was time to do so – as we all do. a purse is an extension of a woman – an attractive mobile command unit containing everything we feel that we need, and items that others may need if we need to rescue them. a purse can speak volumes about a woman’s personality and mood: cluttered/organized, large/small, fashionable/simple – even a beat-up purse hints at a woman’s loyalty. a purse is just one of those things in the world of women that occur naturally for reasons unknown to male logical thought – same goes for why we go to the washroom together.

however, i have broken from the herd. i’d have to say that it’s been over three years now – four years maybe – since i’ve carried a purse.

my dog has pee issues. my former purse fell victim. i was sitting on my bed with my purse next to me, getting ready to go out. and for motives only known to dogs, (jealousy, insecurity, territorialism) my chihuahua jumped up on my bed, peed on my purse, then jumped down and went about his business like nothing happened. i felt that the purse couldn’t be saved – i don’t think it would have survived the kind of washing required to get rid of dog stink.

so, i’ve been a pocket woman ever since. sometimes a praise it and feel liberated, most of the time though, it drives me crazy.

i keep all of my purse-destined articles in a large tote bag in my closet, and take out what i need when i need it. but this is no longer acceptable.

now, it’s not like i haven’t been searching for a new purse in the last few years. i’ve devoted a good amount of shopping time to purse hunting – but nothing pleases me; no purse feels like the right purse. two years ago, someone tried to ease my pain and bought me a purse … i said thank you and returned it to the store. then this past winter, i got angry and bought a purse. i got it home, stocked it, but decided it was just wrong and returned it.

am i really this stubborn and picky? maybe subconsciously i really don’t want another purse – but i still feel compelled to find ms. right.

i do have to admit that i’ve developed an infatuation with the Ameribag Healthy Back Bag, often going to visit them at the mall. yup, just a visit – i’d feel guilty buying one with their price tag; i’m a mom with obligations and debt.

i guess it’s one of those i want what i want, or i want nothing situations – i want the Ameribag, and i’ll settle for nothing else. i guess i’ll keep holding out for a hypothetical sale, a generous gift, or the day i feel that i can spend money a bit more frivolously. until then, i will remain purse-less.

but then, what about the day that my dream bag becomes obsolete and has to go to purse heaven? will this ridiculous process follow me for the rest of my life?

i’m naming my condition Acute Handbag Neurosis.