Make friends that are REAL friends

finally i think is starting to happen… :)

i have a bunch of friends now.. but im the one that always has to ask if they want to hang out or do something. they always seem to have a great time and thank me for it.. i just dont see why i have to initiate everything. i thought i knew some of these people quite well.. Ive asked some of my closest friends if i do anything that bothers others… and they say no.. and i believe them…
so my conclusion is that i just dont know these people that well…

this isn’t always my fault as i know a lot of people. but most of them use be like me years ago. closed and a bit to quiet. sometimes i really don’t know why i don’t have really good friends like what i want. guess i just need to meet more people and try harder.

this has always bugged me since HS.. i know it cant just be me that most of the poeple i seem to meet everywhere are people that are just flaky or mean spirited. makes it just that much harder to find nice, genuine people that are worth being around.
i quit most of my friends that are just mean and vengeful. i want to know great people now, and alot of them!